I need advice on finding the bright side?

I was in a similar situation once, except for the hysterectomy part. The good news is you don't have anywhere to go but up. It may take a while but you will get there. So get a grip and fight your way back to where you want to be. Just try to learn from your mistakes and make better decisions next time around. Life Is Worth Living. Need more help? Please e-mail me. Too much to write here but if it will keep you from doing something stupid, I will tell you my whole story. Trust me; What you are going through cannot possibly be any worse. I actually put a loaded gun to my head one day. I held it there for about 2 minutes. Then I got angry and I said an emphatic NO!!! I put the gun away and my life has not been the same since. I fought and clawed my way back. I am still not totally out of the woods but I am doing much better.